Monday, September 28, 2009

Clay, Clay, Clay!!!

29 weeks 1 day...

I had another doctor's appointment today and it went really good. 1st...we got to see Clay on the ultrasound. He had either his arm or his hand in his face the whole time...so we didn't get as good as pictures as last time...but we got some. The little booger weighs 2 lbs. 11 oz which is right on track. His heart rate was 156 BPM which was good. They measured the fluid around him and that was good too. He's head down and I pray he decides to just stay there and no more flipping!! He can kick the snot out of my ribs all he wants...I won't complain...lol!

Now I go every week to the doctor. They are going to rotate doing an ultrasound 1 visit and non-stress test the next. So I go next Monday morning for a non-stress test. As for me...I gained 1 lb. in 2 weeks which isn't too bad...and my BP was 112/56. Had lots more questions about the H1N1 vaccine...but I'm lucky to say I'm the 1st one on my doctor's waiting list to get what is left over from the hospital. The only problem was my thyroid # was a little high (by 1/10) but they aren't worried about it. They'll check that in about a month to see how it's doing. Thanks to the cooler weather...I have had no swelling...but my back has been killing me @ night from doing too much during the day. So I was told to take it easy and not do everything. Other than that...everything else is going good. More updates to come next Monday...please continue to keep us and other expecting mommies in your thoughts and prayers :-)


Here is one picture of him...his arm is covering his nose and mouth but you can still see an eye (which is closed), his forehead, little ear off to the side, and his should...how cute!!!!
This is a close up of the pic above. I think he looks like Crystal in this one.
His profile and that little hand up there by his mouth...lol!

Profile...down below his chin is his hand sneaking up to his face...little booger!!


His HR was 156 BPM








Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Mason's Star

28 weeks 3 days....

This is something I haven't talked about awhole lot...mainly because tears pour out of my eyes when I do. It's really special because Crystal thought of this all on her own and just the timing and place that this happened...well...you'll see...have a kleenex ready!!

Last year on Christmas Eve we were coming home and Crystal was asking where Mason lived at. We told her up in heaven w/Jesus and anytime she needed to see or talk to Mason...she could just look up in the sky and he would be there. So as we were getting out of the truck, she said "Mommy, Mommy look...it's Mason!!!" I asked her where and she said "Right there...that BIG star...he's twinkling @ me". Of course I broke down because the words coming out of her mouth were so innocent and pure and I just wanted to reach up there and grab that star to let her hold. So from that day...the brightest shining star in the sky is Mason and we call it "Mason Star".

She always talks to the star just like she's talking to Mason and tells him she loves him and always takes her toys out to show him. So last night we were out spotlighting and she saw the star (which I was really surprised there was any out because of how cloudy it was). So she starts talking to it and she says "You'll always be my little boy, Mason and Clay isn't going to be up there w/you because we want him to stay here...is that ok?" OMG...I usually can control it because Crystal doesn't like seeing me upset...but I couldn't help this one. It seems the closer we get to November the more my heart is worn on my sleeve and everything upsets me. So she saw me crying and thought I was sad...which I kind of was...but I wasn't because this is what I wanted...for her to never forget about Mason and to know he is her brother...he's just in heaven. So she talked a little more and then as we were going through the trees she was playing peek-a-boo...and just laughing and very soon my tears just dried up & I was laughing right w/her. Then she told him she had to quit for awhile because she was going to drink some chocolate milk.

I started thinking about when I was pregnant last year w/Mason and how it was sooo neat to feel him shift to whatever side she was on and kick her. I never imagined somebody could form such a close bond w/something they never saw, held, or even knew what he looked like...but Crystal didn't care...she was just soooo excited that she was going to get somebody to play with. Looking back...I sometimes wonder if between Mason and God...one of the two...or maybe both knew what was going to happen and that's why he was so active w/Crystal. I don't dwell on it...but it makes me curious. Being pregnant w/Mason and Clay have been very different in that way. Clay will kick @ Crystal...but he doesn't shift sides to go be close to her. And I'm in no way saying there is no bond...because Crystal loves him just as much as Mason and Clay likes her too...she loves hugging him and kissing him & he likes when she picks books out to read and I read them to her...but it's just little things Mason did and Clay doesn't and maybe it's because of what destiny holds.

We got home and I got the biggest hug & kiss from her and she told me "mommy...it's ok". It's just like she knew what to say and to be simple about it and that's all I needed. Then for the rest of the night she was in a good mood and we played tolalaboomdeyay and ran around the fireplace, & laughed and Clay kicked for 2 1/2 hours while watching the Cardinal's game and then continued when we went to bed and thumped the crap out of Jeremy . It's a good thing he wasn't up in my ribs...cause they would be sore this morning...lol!

I really don't know what I'd do without Crystal and Jeremy. They have been my rocks through all of this. A lot of people wouldn't think a 3 year old could handle a situation like this...but all around she has been unbelievable. I thank God everyday for her.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

What's been going on...

28 weeks...

I know it's been almost a whole week since I posted...but let me tell you I've been a little busy. My mom and sister had a garage sale this weekend so during the week I helped a little bit to set some things up. We thought about having one too...but right now it just seems like too much work and stress...so we didn't.

Friday we went to Sandy's pizza for supper and then up to Heritage days. It was a lot bigger this year and there was tons more for the kids to do. I got my HUGE cinnamon roll (4 of them actually...lol). I also got my diaper bag and baby blanket I had Jennifer Riley from Flip Flop Embroidery make for Clay. They both turned out really good and are sooooo cute!! Now I just can't wait to use them :-)

Saturday I threw a baby shower for some friends of ours. They are expecting a little girl in Oct. so the theme was John Deere Girl. It turned out really cute and everything went smooth. I was tired afterwards and my legs and feet felt like concrete from standing. So my wonderful husband rubbed them down that night...Thank Honey!!

Now it's Sunday and it's a day to catch up on the laundry and prepare for the busy weekend ahead of us. Friday we have a academy graduation party to go to for a friend and Saturday is Jeremy's 10 yr. class reunion. Sunday will be a catch up day and then Monday is another doctor's appointment w/an ultrasound!! I'm looking forward to Monday and can't wait to see our little boy again.

Speaking of our little boy...we gave me a scare last night. Usually everytime I get up to go pee he wakes up and kicks for about 15 mins & then goes back to sleep. So last night I got up to pee and laid back down. About 10 mins went by and I didn't feel any movement. Immediately anxiety sat in. I rolled over to my other side and put my hand & Jeremy's hand (he didn't know I did this...he was sound asleep) on my belly. Relief came when I started feeling little kicks almost instantly. I think I will develop my 1st grey hair before Clay is born just from the nervousness and worrying. I am trying my best to stay positive and to keep in mind everything should be ok...but it's sooooo hard. I'm just taking things day by day and pray everyday that Clay will have a better outcome and will be able to be here to celebrate everyday with us.

I don't know if I'll be able to post anything during this week so it might be another whole week without hearing from me. Hope everybody's week goes good!!

Monday, September 14, 2009

27 week appointment

27 weeks 1 day...

Today I had a doctor's appointment and I'm glad to say that everything went really good. I had to give some blood to check my sugar, thyroid, and other things and I'm guessing that is all good cause I haven't had any phone calls saying something was wrong.

At my last appointment my doctor told me to bring in my little heart monitor that a friend has let me borrow and see if she could get it to work. So I brought that w/me. My visit w/the nurse went good. My BP was 104/44 (which I thought was low) but she said it was good...they like them low. So far I've only gained 12 lbs. too (which I thought I had gained more close to 20lbs!) So all of that was good news. Of course I had lots of questions about the flu shots and the H1N1 shot. She gave me some papers about both and I've been looking over them. She said the shots aren't really for me...but to give the baby antibodies for after he's born. I don't know what to do. Part of me is telling me not to and the other is telling me to. It was helpful knowing that pregnant woman get a different kind of flu shot from others and it won't actually make you sick. Basically is sounded to me that the shot for pregnant woman was just full of antibodies because our bodies can't produce antibodies at the rapid speed they need to compared to somebody who isn't pregnant. I don't think I'll get the seasonal flu shot...but I'm 1/2 way considering getting the H1N1...and if I get it...Crystal is going to get it too. I only see it fair that if I'm helping one child out to do the same for the other. Plus the nurse told me what type of shot to ask for for Crystal. I just want to do the right thing and keep my kids safe and not to have anything happen...I don't think I could handle loosing another baby.

So anyways...back on track...I got put in the room w/the ultrasound machine...so YAY...I got to see our little kicker!!! At 1st he was head up, right in my right ribs w/his feet up there too kicking away. He was all curled up in a little ball and kind of looked funny. Dr. Ramsey got on his HR which was 150bpm. She took the doppler off and put the thing I brought on. Of course it would have been less confusing if I had plugged the headphones into the little part that picks up the noise...lol!!! (It's never a dull moment when I'm in the office...LOL!!!) So finally my brains kicked in and got everything hooked up right and tried to find his HR. Couldn't find it so she went back to the ultrasound and that little booger was in the process of flipping!!! His head was already over to my left side and his feet her sticking through the right side. Of course he was on his belly (his favorite position) so we didn't get a look @ his profile. He was high-tailing to get back to head down because by the time we got into the truck I could already feel his head was down and my waist band on my shorts were bothering him. So needless to say...DON'T spend your $$$ on those things because as my doctor put it..."they are a piece of POS and the company needs to be sued!" I didn't get her doppler. She said we'll do a few tests and depending on how my nerves and anxiety are we'll see when/if I get one. I'm alright w/that because Clay is on a kicking schedule...Mason wasn't and just moved constantly. Plus Clay will respond to sugar and Jeremy's hand on my belly.

Dr. Ramsey said from what she could tell he was doing good and I go back to see her 9/28. I'll have an ultrasound @ 10am and then to see her afterwards. They are going to check his weight...so I'm really anxious to see his little chubby cheeks again!!! After my 9/28 appointment I will go every week until I have him. They'll do ultrasounds and non-stress test to keep an eye on him.

I just pray that everything turns out good this time. Crystal told me the other day that "I'm telling you what...Clay isn't going to heaven...we need a baby here!!" Just when you think they don't fully know or understand...something like that is said. I love her to pieces and I pray and hope she gets her dream come true of being able to hold and play w/her baby brother.

We did talk to our pastor the other Sunday. We are kind of planning Clay's dedication and trying to get things lined out for that. The neat thing is Jeremy's dad is going to do it @ our church and we think it'll be Dec. 20th. I'll talk more about that later cause the whole situation w/that is so neat all around!!

So please continue to pray for Clay and the rest of us. So far the prayers are working but until he's here we won't be out of the woods for this chapter of our lives. Thanks for everybody's thoughts and prayers!!!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

The Republicans can do it...why not the Democrats?

Ok...so what was so bad about Obama's speech today? Personally I like when somebody encourages my child to "always do her best and to be good at what she does"...no matter if it comes from me, her dad, her grandparents, a friend, a pastor, a teacher, a homeless person, or YES...the President of the United States. In that phrase...how is that brainwashing in a negative matter? Come on people...these kids are our futures and if we teach them to be disrespectful to somebody as high as the President...what do you think they'll do to a stranger or even to us???

So his speech was telling a little about how things were when he was in school & how he was raised by his mom, how you need your education to be a doctor, nurse, teacher, etc...isn't not just handed to ya, how these kids knowledge can help fight cures, homelessness, etc, everybody has a talent, even when times are tough a "family" needs to stay together and be strong, how we make our own future, when times are tough not to just give up, setting goals, washing hands to stay healthy, how every kids out there deserves a safe environment, no one's born @ being good at things, don't be afraid to ask questions if you need help, and probably most important...don't give up on yourself.

Granted...I don't think 5th grade and under really needed to see the speech because most aren't currently working on their future goals on what they really want to be when they grow up but I think middle school and definitely high school students needed to see it. Crystal watched it...and she's 3 (well almost 4 yrs old)...she got bored like a normal child her age would and left after 10 mins...but I certainly didn't hog tie her done and tell her to watch it. In fact she said "that guy is telling me to do good when I get to go to school...so mommy...when do I get to go to school?"

So are you going to point your finger @ me and tell me I was allowing the President to "brainwash" my child...cause there are worse things out there that could be said to children. How do you think a drug addict who has a child in school feels when they hear about the county officer coming to their school and telling kids to "just say no to drugs" or an alcoholic who's kid watched a video on how drunk driving can kill? I bet those people don't like their kids seeing that...but do the schools not show it because somebody disagrees...ya...you know the answer. Some would say "but Kali...that's different"...no it's not cause that officer is telling our kids to better themselves just like the president did.

So no matter if Obama was Republic or Democrat, white, black, orange, or blue, male or female, young or old...I don't see where a little encouragement to stay in school and be the best you can be is harmful. Wonder if people would have thrown the same fit if a white homeless person had the ability to give that same speech or even if Mike Huckabee would have won and wanted to give a speech to our kids.

So...the stuff below is from msnbc.com. I normally don't read stuff like this...but since I have a child who will be in school in a couple of years I thought I'd read a little bit before I actually preached...just to get my facts straight. Enjoy and do read...it's helpful for those who are confused.


After the president’s speech to students, the White House press secretary came under questions from reporters asking about the propriety of spending taxpayers’ money to disseminate a political message to children. Political opponents in Congress even called for an investigation.

That was in 1991, and the president was George H.W. Bush. The political tempest is a reminder that presidents have regularly directed messages to the nation’s children, at least once before sparking a reaction reminiscent of the storm over President Barack Obama’s back-to-school address to students Tuesday.

When Bush spoke, the uproar was over the possibility that he might use footage of the event in political ads. Little attention was given to what Bush actually said, even though he went further than Obama did Tuesday in asking schoolchildren for their support.

That was a lesson Bush likely learned from his predecessor, President Ronald Reagan, who more than once made explicitly political appeals to students in schoolhouse settings, one of them only six months before he was up for re-election.

Bush got into trouble because he spoke on Oct. 1, 1991, at the beginning of the 1992 election cycle. Although Bush would not announce his campaign for a second term until the following February, he had already made it clear by then that he would probably run.
Against that background, Bush showed up at Alice Deal Junior High School in Washington for a speech that would be aired for students across the country by PBS and CNN. Opponents — notably Dick Gephardt of Missouri, the House Democratic leader — accused the Education Department of spending taxpayers’ money to produce “paid political advertising for the president.”

Marlin Fitzwater, the president’s spokesman, agreed that footage of the event would make for an effective campaign spot. “We certainly would use any tape of the president, doing anything, anywhere in the world at any time if it was to his political benefit,” Fitzwater said, according to The Washington Post’s account of his briefing for reporters two days afterward.
That was too much for Democrats in Congress, who ordered up an investigation by the General Accounting Office (now known as the Government Accountability Office). Two weeks later, the GAO concluded that the speech had not run afoul of limits on “the use of appropriations for publicity and propaganda.”

Bush sounds theme that got Obama in trouble. Like most of Bush’s speech 18 years ago, Obama’s address Tuesday was an innocuous reminder to kids to stay in school, with an update for these modern times — don’t spend too much time on the Internet.

What created the controversy this week was a “lesson plan” the White House distributed to teachers to help students understand the president’s message. Among the suggestions was that teachers have their students “write letters to themselves about what they can do to help the president”; that idea was dropped from revised lesson plans after some Republicans complained that the White House was trying to recruit the nation’s children to work for him.

As it happens, Bush went further than that in his 1991 speech, directly asking the nation’s students to “write me a letter — and I’m serious about this one — write me a letter about ways you can help us achieve our goals.”
“I think you know the address,” he said.
A review of news coverage from the time shows that little notice was given to the content of Bush’s call to arms, just 13 months before the general election.
Most of the time, a president’s communication to schoolchildren passes with little fanfare as just another civics lesson. For all of the controversy over Obama’s decision to bypass parents to speak directly to students in school, it was a favorite tactic for Reagan and the first President Bush.

On May 13, 1986, Reagan spoke to students at John A. Holmes High School in Edenton, N.C., by video hookup from the White House. His remarks and an ensuing question-and-answer session were piped into schools nationwide.
In his address, which came just six months before he was up for re-election, Reagan several times delivered campaign-style remarks, reporting that “we’ve been working to take an economy that was in bad shape and get it moving and growing again, take our national defense and make it first-rate again after a long period of decline, and to restore reason, respect and reality to our foreign policy.”
“And I think it’s fair to say that we’ve made a good deal of progress,” the president said.
Reagan went further, drawing a contrast with the Democrats:
“Only five years ago, our economy suffered from high inflation, high interest rates, mushrooming government spending and steadily increasing unemployment. A lot of people couldn’t find jobs, and people on fixed incomes were finding it harder to buy the basics, such as food and shelter.”
Military morale was poor, American foreign policy was not “coherent and logical,” and the Pentagon did not have a fully “realistic sense of defense needs,” he went on.

Then he told his young, largely captive audience that “we got inflation down, interest rates down, and our economy created over 1½ million new jobs just last year alone. The poor are now increasingly able to dig themselves out of poverty, and that’s been good economic news.”
“The point is that all we’ve done has had, and will continue to have, a direct impact on your lives,” Reagan said.
Reagan: Thanks to me, ‘there’s more patriotism’Two-and-a-half years later, on Nov. 14, 1988, Reagan delivered a similar message to junior high school students in the State Dining Room at the White House.
Without naming his predecessor specifically, Reagan declared in a question-and-answer session that under the administration of Democrat Jimmy Carter, “there were some things that we thought were very wrong, including the fact that there were more people unemployed, inflation was robbing the people of their earnings and their money — interest rates were high and all.”
Thanks to his administration, the president told the audience of 13-, 14- and 15-year-olds, “we have not only restored prosperity, but we have created almost 1½ million new jobs [and] added to those jobs that were already there, so that unemployment is so far down that today of all the Americans 16 years of age ... 62.7 percent of those people have jobs, are employed today.”
And to boot: “I think we have restored the belief in America’s freedom and the obligation that we have to our country. I think there’s more patriotism today.”

Besides his disputed address at Deal Junior High, the first President Bush also delivered two other, less political messages directly to schoolchildren. Both — on Sept. 12, 1989, from the library of the White House, and on Sept. 9, 1991, in a teleconference with schoolchildren during the annual National Space Science Symposium — stressed his themes that drugs are bad, studying is good and you ought to stay in shape.
None of those events — or any other presidential address or message to children — drew the same scrutiny or opposition as Obama’s address did Tuesday. That goes all the way back to 1907, when President Theodore Roosevelt sent a “Letter to the School Children of the United States” urging them to “celebrate your Arbor Day thoughtfully.”

Unlike Reagan, who was fond of reeling off strings of economic statistics to his audiences of young children, Roosevelt set out simply to explain things. “Arbor Day,” he helpfully wrote, “means simply ‘Tree Day.’”

Our Labor Day Weekend!

26 weeks 2 day...

We had a pretty good Labor Day this year. The weather wasn't too hot (which is good for pregnant and swelling people like myself :-)

We got to start our Labor Day weekend a little early cause Toyota didn't work on Friday. So...Thursday night was a pretty fun night...it was movie night! Friday we all slept in and Jeremy & Crystal made pancakes. Friday morning we watched "Wizard of Oz" (Crystal is going to be Dorothy for Halloween so she needed to know who Dorothy was). She really liked the movie and is really excited about Halloween now!! Jeremy got my fall decor done and I decorated the house all in fall!!

Saturday we decided to go on a road trip and went to Marengo Cave. We all had free tickets so the trip only costs us the gas. Crystal really liked going into the caves and I could tell she was taking it all in. We walked a total of 1.25 miles of caves and thank goodness the caves temps were only 52 degrees!!! I hadn't been in a cave since our honeymoon...so it was still really neat to do that.

Crystal wanted me to take a pic on this...I forgot what they called it exactly...but they spiral down...it's really neat!
Here she is panning for jewels...she found some and thought it was really cool!

Here is Crystal and daddy walking through a portion of the cave. I didn't take a lot of pics in there because of the darkness plus I wanted to stay w/Jeremy cause the floors were uneven and I didn't want to fall.


Going up to level 1 of the cave



Before we went in she found this spot and said "Mommy...take my picture!" I did and it turned out sooooo cute!!!
After the caves we went to Bass Pro. We got Crystal and Clay both wildlife animals and us a hooded sweatshirt. We eat @ Famous Dave's BBQ and I had a HUGE chicken salad...it was soooo good...but not as good as the bread pudding w/ice cream!!! Clay LOVED it!
Sunday started out ok...the middle was BAD...the end was good. The date was 9/6...10 months since we lost Mason and only 2 months away from the year anniversary. The closer to Nov. we get the more anxious and nervous I get about how I will come Nov. and worried about Clay being healthy and making it here safe. I don't want to wish away the time between now and Dec. but I just pray that everything stays going good and come Christmas we'll have Clay to celebrate and open presents with!
Sunday night we all slept in the camper and had a camp out. Crystal slept really good but the thunderstorm woke me and Jeremy up.
Monday morning we woke up early and headed to Princeton for the Labor Day parade. Crystal got LOTS AND LOTS of candy!! She was worn out after the parade and ready for a nap...lol! We went to the railroad's picnic @ the park and she played for awhile and was ready to go home and take that nap. Later that day we went driving around and ended up @ the river and visited w/some friends.
Hope everybody else had a good Labor Day!!




Wednesday, September 2, 2009

The H1N1 Shot...to take or not to take???

25 weeks 3 days...

As everybody knows the news and newspapers have been going crazy about the H1N1 or as they like to call it "Swine Flu". It has me scared to death to take the shot and scared not to take it...so which way do I turn?

If I take this they say a possible side effect is neurological problems. Do I want to take that kind of chance w/Clay?? Especially since what happened w/just loosing a baby last year. They haven't even completed the testing of these vaccines and it's brand new...how do they know what kind of side effects it might or might not have? I'm thinking they are going to have to show my some positive stats before they tell me "it's safe".

They say you might have to get 2-3 shots for this vaccine to be effective AND if you get them early (like Oct.) you might be vaccinated against it by Thanksgiving...however they say Indiana isn't suppose to get their 1st rounds until November. So ya...if I do take the shot I'm giving come antibodies to the baby but not all of them.

I could see where I'm lean more toward taking it IF Crystal was in preschool and around a lot of other kids OR I worked in a place w/coworkers...but neither of those fit me...Crystal's not in school and I work all by myself. Plus I plan on NOT doing any Christmas shopping after Clay makes his arrival because of him being a newborn and all this stuff going around. I have the Internet and can finish my shopping online if I need. And as far as grocery shopping...we go 2 times a month and if need be...I'll send Jeremy after it and Lysol him down before he walks in the door...lol!

Last year I opted NOT to get the regular flu shot while I was pregnant w/Mason and didn't regret it because I didn't get the flu during the entire season. ..nor did Crystal or Jeremy and they didn't get the flu shot either. I've only had the flu twice (that I know of) in my whole life. One time that I had it...I had to get the flu shot because I was working as a CNA on the 5th floor @ the hospital...and I actually ended up getting the flu twice that year.

I know I will talk to my doctor and also Crystal's doctor (because she'll be Clay's too) alot before making a final decision...but I would much rather take extraordinary precautions or live like a hermit before putting a this vaccine into me and having something happen to Clay.

So...whoever reads this...if you were in my position...what would you do? My heart if telling me no but the media is saying yes...I just don't want to make the wrong decision and do what's healthy for my baby.