4 months

Sorry I haven't been updating like I should. With the nice weather we have had...it's hard to stay inside. So there is my excuse.

Well...the Mickey Mouse thing went good last weekend. Crystal had a blast and was in aww when the characters would come out. However...Jeremy & I have decided that we think she might like going to concerts better. She didn't jump around and sing like she does at concerts...but she still had lots of fun! Her little friend Cali and her baby sister, Maci, went and Cali really enjoyed the show. Once I figure how to pictures up...I'll post some. I've found how to post pics...but how do you get them to be throughout the text on your blog??? Any ideas let me know!

My main reason for this blog is to shed some light on how we are all doing 4 months after loosing Mason. I can't believe that tommorrow will be 4 months! Some days seem like it was just yesterday and other feel like it's been a lifetime. There hasn't been a day that goes by that I don't think about my little boy and everytime I look @ Crystal I think about what he could have been. It upsets me...but @ the same time I think "Wow! Heaven sure is being entertained!"

I hadn't had any major crying episodes for awhile until last night. I had eaten something that gave me some gas (sorry for sharing that...but it's important to the story). For anybody who is a mother you know that gas bubbles feels so much like kicks and moves. Well...I felt those bubbles moving around in me and the 1st feeling I thought of was Mason moving. That's all I'm going to say about that because for those of you who have experienced this or you really know me...you know how I felt the rest of the night. But just as the dark cloud started coming over me...I heard Crystal's little feet come running into our room. She climbed up on our bed and snuggled up to me. That was the greatest feeling and I needed that to remind me that no matter how many bad days I have...there is always something good to end the day with. Usually I or Jeremy take her back to her bed...but I wanted her to stay because as much as she thought she needed us...I needed her even more.

Things are getting back to feeling normal. I still need my exercise in the morning to get me going strong...but I probably should be doing that anyways. I know my little man is in many good hands and is probably making so many friends. I also know that he ordered this nice weather for me because he LOVED when I would be outside. Any nice days that we have had...I've tried to be outside and just sit and enjoy. I've also met a really nice girl who recently experienced something similar to what we went through w/Mason. Our background and stories are so similar and it's nice to be able to actaully talk to somebody who is experiencing this too. Don't get me wrong that my friends and family has been there for me...but it's different talking to somebody who just knows.

We have another big weekend planned...but this time it's just for me and Jeremy. Friday night we are going to the sectional game; Pton vs. Boonville. We are going back to Nashville and going to the Grand Ole Opry on Sat. night. We get to see Carrie Underwood and Josh Turner!! We have awesome seats too...10th row! We have to miss the last sectional game...so I hope Pton wins so we can see them @ regionals! I can't belive I'm saying this...but Go Tigers and let's keep it Undefeated!!!!

Before I sign off...I just want to take a moment to thank God for everything I have here and for those I have in heaven. In these past 4 months I've realized how important the small things are in life. I can't begin to tell you how much I love my husband and Crystal and even though our time w/Mason was too short...I love him just as much! Kisses and hugs to my little angel!